Life Update
Yes, it’s another column update. And, as you can see, an opportunity for me to update you on the rather exciting state of my life at the moment. Those of you who don’t want to know about this kind of thing, stop reading now.
I am currently at home in Bishop’s Stortford, after quitting Imperial (it’s not yet been made official, but I’ve pretty much decided). Tomorrow, me and my mum go back to my room to clear out my remaining posessions. And then I will officially no longer live in London.
The reasons for leaving are varied. One of the main causes has to be the flair up of my depression. Over the Christmas holidays, I stopped taking my Anti Depressants (AD’s). This was with guidance from my doctor, and was easier than I expected. However, my mood took a nose dive, and I am now back on AD’s (the same ones as before), but now double the doseage, as they weren’t working.
I was also strugling socially, and not keeping on top of the work.
It has not yet been decided what will happen next year, or even next week. I will probably get a job until October, and then go back to Uni, somewhere. Quite possibly UMIST, or back to Imperial, or York. I’ll keep you posted.
So there you go. Hell, let’s have a few more revelations. I have been depressed for 4 years. I have been suicidal 3 times in my life, including now, and attempted to take my life twice. I use SI to cope with the way I feel.
Feel free to e-mail me about any of this. Or post on the message board. I’m quite happy to talk publicly about things. I hope that anyone who reads this doesn’t find it disgusting, or think I am wrong for writing it all down.
I’m just tired of you all not knowing the real me.